The day of the Caroline Hili show last Sunday went down like any other day during Malta Fashion Week. In case you’re wondering: I wake up late. Jog. Shower. Have a healthy juice and a quick bite. Pamper myself. Or I try to anyway. Throw some stuff on and get my ass to Valletta. Greet the designer backstage. Have a peek. Find my seat and wait for the models to start trotting out. Oh and I had to go to Gozo and come back amidst all that, but that’s a story for another day. This time around, another thrill came minutes before the show started.

A photographer came over while I was talking to some readers and taking selfies (guilty as charged) and asked if he could take a shot. I obviously gave him the go ahead while I posed in a very fashion blogger manner. Smile, peace sign and all. That’s when I heard the woman standing behind me.

“Imnalla jaf jilbes u tad-daħq dan t’hawn… Għax vera ikrah it-tifel.”

Translates to ‘Thank God he’s funny and dresses well, cos he sure is ugly,’ for you English peeps.

Now had it been any other time and place, I wouldn’t have hesitated to snap at the woman. I didn’t wanna cause a commotion, and she had a child with her. And I’m not that type of guy. But I did look her in the eye and she realized I heard it loud and clear.

I didn’t think about it at first and just found my seat and enjoyed the show on the Renzo Piano Steps. By the way, amazing show Caroline!

But then I got home and that’s where I get emotional. Did my style and humour make up for ‘beauty’? I couldn’t stop thinking about it. And I was so angry at myself for letting one bump shake me when I get hundreds of nice comments and messages on a daily basis, but then it hit me.

What I do has nothing to do with beauty. The word beauty never crosses my mind really. Personal style doesn’t require you to be model-faced or model-thin, cos it’s not about how you look but what you say through your clothes and how you carry them. And that’s why my fashion blog is my safe haven – I can be myself, flaws and all. But now that I’m conscious about all this… I’d like to think my readers follow me cos they relate to me for not being a dropdead beautiful fashion blogger with a perfect face and body. I’m just a normal guy with something to share and something to say.

Scratch that, a lot to say.

More importantly though, I like the way I look. I have insecurities like any other human being, but I grew to accept my flaws cos as corny as it sounds – they really do make me who I am. I know my nose will always be a bit too big cos my mother has it too. So if I think she’s beautiful I guess I’ll be just fine. My weight will always yo-yo all over the place and I will always have a little lisp. So even if all that makes me ugly to that woman and God knows how many others… It’s okay. Some of us will never be models, and who cares? Flaws and genetics are the maps of what we’ve all been through, and I’m happy to say… I like what I see.

THOUGHTS?
  • Desiree’ Attard

    In my opinion, style beats physical beauty cos it’s something YOU create, not born with 🙂 But PS I think you’re cute 🙂 X

  • Devil Wears Pra-duh

    Thank you Des!

  • nicole

    And this here is what makes you a good blogger, no a great one! And why you have so many fans!
    Noones perfect, yes some have it better than others but might have it worse in other things, noone can tell.
    Even if you’d have the perfect face and perfect body. People will critisize just the same, they always do. But at the end of the day if it’s coming from someone who barely knows you who really cares? Chin up you’re great and a star !

  • theuniform

    Uff ta- xi dwejjaq ta nies! Toqodx tati kashom. There’s a reason you’re such a good blogger and there’s a reason people look up to you, and that reason is the fact that you take what you have and turn it into something that makes a statement. Something that looks amazing. That, my friend is beauty. Beauty is the ability of the mind to create, to innovate, and to make the most out of what there is. I hope one day that people can say the same for me (not what the woman said ta), and that some other people will grow up and realise that natural attactiveness is only one facet of ‘beauty’.

  • Devil Wears Pra-duh

    Ellz you just made my YEAR x

  • Devil Wears Pra-duh

    Thank you so much Nic!

  • Issa

    definitely what that lady saw ugly on you is exactly what makes her ugly… the sign of a beautiful person is that they always see beauty in others… I have been following you since I discovered your blog, I love fashion and I follow many bloggers everyday… I think your blog is very good and the way you see fashion will take you high… there is the perception that to be a successful fashion blogger you have to be a model but the most important in a blogger in my opinion is the way how they bring out fashion to our eyes and that’s something you do really well… Keep it up!! and never ever let anyone’s opinion to put you down 🙂 just be yourself x

  • Devil Wears Pra-duh

    This means so much to me. Thank you!

  • Ditto! Loved this post and I 100% agree with you!
    Style counts 10.000 times more than beauty and it stays with us forever, beauty fades.
    Beauty without style is nothing!
    Keep it up (btw I loved your style at Fashion Shows!)
    xoxo from Italy
    S.
    http://www.nonsoloshopping.eu

  • Devil Wears Pra-duh

    Grazie Sara!!! X

  • Gabriella Gomez Xuereb

    Well I say she doesn’t know what fashion & personal style mean. Fashion is art and its how each person embraces it and makes it ‘their own’. Some people think they know it all but in reality its their way to show off, which in the end makes them the real idiots. Ignore what people say. If you’re happy and comfortable with the way you dress then stick to it. ignorance is bliss.

    P.S. Love love love your blog! Keep it up xxx

  • Rebecca

    Could not have said it better !!!!
    Fab on dan :]